02 September 2009

Psalm 62

Today in my time with the Lord I read Psalm 62.  It is aptly entitled in my John MacArthur study Bible as "A Calm Reserve to Wait for the Salvation if God."  During the past three years I have found a GREAT deal of comfort and encouragement from this Psalm, especially verses 5-8

My soul, wait silently for God alone, my expectation is from Him.  He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved.  In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.  Trust in Him at all times, you people [Ashley]; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah

Wow!  I must wait solely for the Lord - my expectation/hope is from Him alone.  He is steadfast.  He is the One in whom I can glory.  He is the One in whom I can trust - at all times!  It is just like the previous Psalm 18:10, "The name of the Lord is a strong tower: the righteous run into it and they are safe."  God is that immediate and constant source of refuge.  Encompassingly, He is, as the title claims, my salvation.

I am, however, so quick to put off the preface: "A Calm Reserve to Wait for..."  Here I sit, alone in my little apartment, far far away from everyone and everything I know and love (except Robert, who is at school).  Yet I daily, more like minutely - if that were a word -get so frustrated that I am sitting here.  Of course I can always rejoice in my salvation and the so many many things that I have to be presently and eternally thankful.  I am confident that I am safe and secure in the refuge of God's name.  I know that God is daily working in my life, sharing undeserved, daily graces.  Yet, I am bored out of my little mind.  I want a job so badly.  I just want something to do, or a friend with whom I could just talk for hours.  I know so many would love a break - but I feel so useless...  And I was/am trusting in God, waiting for something to come along.  I am constantly saying in the Lord's time - and I really thought that that would be at the end of the week or next week at the latest.  Here I sit, though, a week after the latest and my "salvation" a job, a task, a commission - something to make me not feel so purposeless -  has yet to come.  In no means am I afflicted or tormented like David.  I am simply and uglily impatient!

David writes verse 11, "God has spoken once, twice I have heard this: that power belongs to God."   

For the sake of wrapping this up, Goodness, can't I wait on the Lord.  If the power belongs to Him - and certainly it does! - and He is sovereignly in control - which He is! - and on top of all of that, we have a covenant together, in which He is graciously and eternally faithful to me, His child... Can I not wait on He who is sovereign, faithful, and rich with power!  I truly believe that what He has is much better than the plan I made for my self last week, and then the one I made five days ago when that didn't work out (Is. 55!).  He has all the power!  That does not include only my life and my circumstances, but that of corporations and places of education, or employers and pastors, of nature and the cattle on 1000 hills!  And it's just really cool to not only know someone like that, but to have my life in His hands!  

05 August 2009


i started this for those of you in NOVA - because i love you!  so, soon i will update everyone on our adventure from Burke, VA to sunny CA!  i think we are moving in tomorrow, and i am SOOOO excited!  love you!